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     1 year has passed and there were no signs of love, affection, bonding , nothing at all in her ached heart. She dint even trust anyone, she had become stone-hearted. It was the extreme and intense hatred that had evolved in her head and heart until the time she met this amazing guy. The guy was so dashingly handsome, fair ,tall and moreover what attracted her was that he was serving the nation,ya, he was an “army officer”.The officer just narrated the whole journey of his ups and downs and specially the “love of his life”. Wow, the love birds just made her regain the trust to love someone again.The love birds were madly in love with each other .They had crossed every hurdle to be with each other,they just lived their lives to stay together forever in love.They were so in love that she herself recalled some memories down the past and started cherishing those but within her trueself,only she knew that nothing will get fixed,she had lost him,she had lost love.But howev...

She had undergone a big change which was making her unable to mingle with people and the most difficult part was that those "people" were the dear ones,the ones close to her heart . Now the option left that she can do was to just avoid them. She has totally destroyed her social life.She doesn't want to interact with anyone anymore.She want to be alone and enjoy her own free space.This has become so weird for other people to accept her this dark side .She was not like this before.She was questioning herself as to what has happened to her?Why this big change?Why Has she suddenly turned from a cool bindaas girl to a mateur psychopath who doesn't want to maintain relations with anyone?Why was she suddenly hesitating to be polite and good to her loved ones?She was looking for the answers but couldn't find them...The mystery within herself remained unsolved....

There was rush of thoughts running down her mind & she was getting desperate to reach the conclusion.In the middle of night,she was struggling to sleep due to the not so wanted thoughts...She was in a fix as to move out or be there with family...She was not able to judge anything and this was disturbing her deep within...She wanted to go to some place where she will be anonymous and free ...She don't want anyone to recognise her...She is now tired of faking it..faking the smile ,faking those social relationships and now she wants to quit this...Its been two years now...it's a long time...and the reason of changing her mind is neither she is herself happy nor her loved ones...she wants to get out and feel free..Its high time now...she is waiting eagerly for the opportunity to be happy again... During this long span of two years,she has undergone a drastic change in herself...she has turned to a boring person from bubbly & cool kinda girl...She is changed and this change...

The guy loved her by his heart,he dint took permission from his parents before loving her but when it comes to the lifetime commitment,then he showed his trueself.He has to take consent from his parents for selecting her.Ya,it's every child's duty to take permission from the parents before doing anything and this was the lifetime decision so ya he has to ask them...but the problem arose when he was not even ready to tell his parents about the one and only girl whom he loved so much..How is that so-called love even making any sense when he is not even ready to tell his parents coz then only their love will be complete after they are married and together for lifetime..But the guy is too dumb to even disclose her name before his parents...I mean in this modern era,WHO is so dumb to be not frank to the parents no matter whatever happens...Parents are always understanding,they listen to their children and accept their mistakes everytime..But this was not even mistake still he total...

The situation was becoming out of the hand and control...Her heart started beating faster ,getting more anxious to know as to what will happen in the coming years as nothing went properly..n u know that nothing was infact  everything from family to love and of course career..It was so unusual,the phase was tough,she was losing time...She had never suffered in this way but now when she is experiencing this,it is becoming difficult for her to handle..may be the bad phase is going on and on to bring a new good positive energetic phase..may be this will take its own time and all you need to do is to wait for the right time..may be you will be reaching the destination soon..So this was all about the destiny and the time...you cannot help it...This will go smoothly ...So she was just encouraging herself to put in efforts without expecting any result coz when time will come, nobody in this world can take it from your destiny,whatever is written in your destiny,you will get it at the end....

The conversation had come to an end actually many months ago & she had totally lost hope in the relationship...But what worse can ever happen..ya this was worse...he was continuously calling from his n his frns numbers but she was not picking up ..Deep down,her heart knew that her love was calling ..the love which she can never forget..the love which she always treasures in her heart as her most prized possession...She was ignoring inturn making some false silly conceptions in her mind that he might be calling to patch up??he might be calling to say sorry??he might be calling to confess about how much he loves her?? & many more never-ending stupid questions made her curious..She internally wanted to talk to him for hours and hours,24-7 but she was helpless..So at last,the patience got over & she called him taking out the frustration,scolding him for calling again and again and many more things..The other side ,her love was patient as if nothing has happened,you know why,be...

It was sunday early morning..Ofcourse every person has the habit of waking up late to rest fully.But alas!!!! the sleepy sunday turned horrifying for her coz she couldn't sleep due to the loud screams of the little baby of her maid..in kashmiri(we call her JEER-BAAY)...It was so disturbing that she even wanted to punch the baby on his face no matter what the circumstances will be..He was continuously crying ,really it is totally a mystery behind this baby's crying...Even the parents sometimes don't know why the baby cries..The situation got worse when she got up in hurry & within no time,she came out of the place giving a dirty angry stare to the maid lolzzzzz. Sleep sometimes becomes a luxury & all you can think of doing is sleeping specially on holiday.When this holiday makes you deprive of the luxury,ofcourse it pinches you hard in the mind as well as heart...So,...For the parents,as soon as you learn to decode the baby's cries,it will become very easy for y...

Normally we people believe in "DO GOOD HAVE GOOD" but sometimes situation is so difficult that you are restrained on doing something good to that person & eventually you turn out to be not supporting that person in any means.So ya you don't always need to be good to get good n you need to be selfish in order to avoid being hurt further.You have to be stone hearted for sometime earlier so that you will not get hurt later.It is the phenomenon of life.Nowadays it's KALYUG and people are very cunning that if you do good to them ,they will definitely stab you further resulting in your disappointment.You know what, the worst part is the sufferer will be you only coz you were taught to be doing good by your parents na. But now break the rules, just be selfish ,don't trust and do good to those with whom you have always been there and helpful.You will always face pain and you will be cheated by those with whom you have shared good things.The lesson is love yourself ,d...

It's been few months the girl had met this person 5 years elder to her & the funny part is in the beginning, she has good regards and respect for him.But like climate hahaha,people also change & you never know when they will show you their real colours. So,you guyz are clever enough to understand that this person was clearly a diplomatic dual faced crook who wore an artificial mask of goodness...His goodness in earlier days were on the peak you know ,she couldnot even believe that he will be having that bad side also..But ya,life teaches everything so as the people around you..A person should be free to  learn ,its not necessary to be in the education line only,it can be anything,with people also.Connection or attachment with somebody with whom you have shared almost any random thing or even secret things for months had become an embarrassment for her now.She was embarassed on her stupidity to trust such person who actually dint even deserved her kick now & had one tim...

It was May 2017.The dreadful experience of travelling in matador in such scorching heat goes on to the nerves....The girl had to go to give this so called banking exam SBI PO & like always she was expecting her dad to accompany her but alas! this morning turned into a sad reality and it just opened her eyes.What followed her next was her mom's terribly saying NO on her face that her dad wont come with her..she has to go alone..This was the lesson she learnt that morning that you come on this planet alone and will go alone and at every step of life,it is not necessary that your parents or anybody else will be there with you..You are only one YOURSELF who has to stand for own self no matter what situation lies ahead us..Ok, now she just took that matador in anger without eating anything or bading goodbye like she always used to do...and there she started getting worried as she dint knew abt the destination where she wanted to go.So, she took out the frustration over the matador ...

Sometimes, circumstances are hell lot of disturbing and the only thing which comes to one's mind is to cooperate & not lose your cool and temper.When things are going in a wrong direction,she gets that craving feeling and wants to just correct it that very moment.This trait in her nature lead to many obstacles and it is a big "chaos".People around her were passing negative vibes and she was not able to cope up with it. She lived in her own world and was the one and only one left creature on the planet.She dint even hesitate  to reveal the truth and "hiding" word was the word she was totally unaware of.This was the problem ...she dint knew how to hide things as she was very bold and daring girl.She can do and say any damn thing in front of everyone.This was becoming very disturbing and she wanted to end this.All she can do is to now be optimistic and learn to IGNORE which which was actually hard task for her.Anyways,life gives us many lessons and a person sh...

The time was passing by and the distance was extending too much.It was to such an extent that she was now not trying to distract herself but was actually not thinking about him...His negligence was enough to let her do that ..The ignorance was to such an extent that she has started going on in some other way...She has started hating herself more for loving him,for loving such person who doesnt even value her..She has chosed the wrong person after all and now all she can do is to regret for wat she did with her ownself..She was losing that love feelings from her heart and wanted those feelings to go away forever and never ever come back so as to intervene her balanced state of mind...The love actually started turning to hatred which made her not talk to him anymore and go on with everyone else except "HIM" in her life.

It was about 4'o clock in the evening sunday and she was feeling weak and restless and  lazy of course that laziness is always at its peak when its sunday..She decided to went out to chill for a while but then suddenly cool breeze started blowing and she dropped the idea of going out but stayed at home...She went to her terrace and started walking and while walking ,various thoughts came to her mind...she was totally obsessed with him after all..Whenever she is free, the flashback comes after her eyes always...she has become narrowminded from a cool ,daring and optimistic girl...The only credit goes to the love of her life who has totally changed her personality ..Those cool winds and the good weather just opened her brain nerves although she was unaware of what will happen next or what she is going to do...but the fresh air just opened the doors for her,,,,the bad things ,the negative vibes,,,the stupidity ,,,everything just flushed out from her mind just that sunday and she was ...

Yes!!!! it was very easy for him to let go of every damn thing, those priceless moments, those lovable memories ,those late night lullabies, those fights, just every single little thing related to their stroong bond...He forgot it so easily and was willing to give that special place to some other girl. She got those signs and was totally tear apart...Her heart was feeling that pain of jealousy right their deep down...She knew that it is very difficult for her to understand wats actually going on and continue with the normal routine...She loves him really very much...Its been 5 years together and ya it was the next month...the valentine month when they were not together...she has firmly decided to not having any talking terms with him...but destiny might have written something else or may be she will stick to her firm decision...Its unbelievable totally that she will live without him but yaa you never know....you cannot predict anything coz the love was eternal,the bonding was unique.....

It was a holiday Sunday and she was very ill and weak..She was feeling very tired and restless and actually somewhere in her head, he was stuck within ...She decided to call him but cudn't coz she had determined not to talk to him...Wateva the conditions were, wateva the reason was, she was so desperate and willing to talk to him and see his lovely eyez ...By the way, she was not only dying to see his eyez but his whole body,his full magnetic personaltity which always attracted her towards him...He was a darling for her but the circumstances made her stay away from him...But God had decided something else dat day,as she was dying to talk to him that day and yes...in the dark, around 8:40 p.m, ZUWA JIO started appearing on her screen..yess...she used to save his number from this name,wen she saw his name...without wasting even a nanosecond,she answered the call..they started talking lyk nothing bad had happened between them and as if evrything was normal...she started telling him m...

She met this superpowerful person few months ago and he took over all her attention...She got so impressed to see his passion towards his work that he became the role model for her...Right from the very beginning, this rock-hard hearted girl met this multi-talented person and their stares got exchanged...I somehow know the boy's perspective rather...Right on  the first sight, he started liking her but they never thought that they will develop ds much strong bond between each other...But destiny always plan according or against your wishes,,,"dat depends"...They started talking often..sharing little and big things ...started spending quality time...talking almost any damn thing to each other...The girl was really messy and was irritating ("a bit" i say) him whenever he is focussed towards his work but see she has got a magnetic personality that attracts him towards her almost everytime..He tries to restrict himself but couldnot help himself LOL...and here the st...

Yes!!!! it was very easy for him to let go of every damn thing, those priceless moments, those lovable memories ,those late night lullabies, those fights, just every single little thing related to their stroong bond...He forgot it so easily and was willing to give that special place to some other girl. She got those signs and was totally tear apart...Her heart was feeling that pain of jealousy right their deep down...She knew that it is very difficult for her to understand wats actually going on and continue with the normal routine...She loves him really very much...Its been 5 years together and ya it was the next month...the valentine month when they were not together...she has firmly decided to not having any talking terms with him...but destiny might have written something else or may be she will stick to her firm decision...Its unbelievable totally that she will live without him but yaa you never know....you cannot predict anything coz the love was eternal,the bonding was unique.....

YESS!! it was the last call from him...After many attempts of disconnecting his calls, she finally picked the call hoping that there will not be any harsh words ...but... Alaas!! SEE she is too unlucky to be treated softly...Going in flash back, she had given him a text saying that his one and only guy whom she loved her very much dint care for her Now as the time has changed and the only thing which was making them talk was his Lust...This dark statement went through his heart keenly and he was not able to even get this at all..This text was disturbing him so much that taking his EGO sidewise, he went on calling her ...But she dint picked his calls until it got on her nerves...OOPS!! now she feels like if she will pick up the call, she will become weak and broke down in tears but Destiny has decided their LAST CONVO on phne which demanded explanation of her last text ...She dint gave him the explanation by saying that it donot affect him anyway as there was no love and care for her l...

Her LOVE is as intense as a fat kid loves cake… <3  she gets butterflies in her stomach weneva she meets up n encounter his gorgeous green eyez dat took over all her attention lyk before also at d very first sight wen she saw him  <3  her luv z just beyond words n truely inexplicable.. <3  she can’t even wait to see him again..she z damn desperate n anxious to have him again close to her heart beats… <3  she luvs him from d core of her heart deep n dense every moment… <3

It’s been 4 years of togetherness & she feels d same warmth of LOVE for her “SOMEONE REELY VERY SPECIAL”…There were fights…so called serious heartbreaks….but dat random things were actually adding to the flavour of her LOVE….She was so lost in her love dat she couldn’t even care for her future with him…She was totally engrossed in the STRONG BOND which she made n continued for many years n will continue afterwards also till her last breath… SHE’S LYK: :*  NOW that  i have you, i plan on keeping you too FOREVER…  :* It’s like craving for him more n more….as if she has no control over her emotions n feelings…she is getting addicted…LOVE is the CONNECTION and her feelings are a reaction to the quality of that connection…It is one of the most extraordinary and beautiful experience one can ever get to build a strong connection with ur LOVE whom u give always the first priority & make him feel SPECIAL N LOVED…..

ohh my ghosh!!! see wat’s happening between the committed gal & the GUY (dint even know about his relationship status )….Finally she got a SIGH OF RELIEF!!! Hurdles are everywhere but the person who has the calibre to overcome n tackle d situations according to circumstances can get through almost anything. YESSS!!! it was her great experience as she met some random good looking guy who had d urge to ask her some silly questions jss to carry on vd the conversation further a nd seee!! juss to divert her mind from d permanent special guy,for a change, the gal also gave positive sign by responding to dose questions…but alas!!! at the end!!! der conversation ended vd der exchange of stares,dat so called silly convo n nothng else…she even hesitated + forgot to ask him his good NAME…d story ended…coz they cant evn contact each odr now….

Her body got numb as his “only one” whom she loved madly called many times just to check whether she is alive or not…She was totally perplexed at her situation…and was actually dreaming of an imaginary happily ever after world which was so impossible in real..She dint even know herself as to how she will react coz d circumstances were so confusing…d incidences of happiness n sorrow both at d same tym dint let her think of d actual scenario…So this condition was making her helpless deep down….She wanted to scream loudly at him bt cudnt do dat as it wudnt have any effect on the “one n only guy” as his behaviour ,his conduct including every lil damn thing made evrythng fishy..So d only option left was to b calm and wait till he realises what she is going through…..

Stop it now!! God !! let every1 go on vd d nrml routine one follows…After 2 days of continuous rain, it feels lyk “wat d heck z goin on”, one can’t even move out…one has to be stuck totally according to d rain shower…m seriously hating it!!! A nrml prson who doesnt own dose luxuries has to go to his wrkplace passing through those muddy streets…arghhh!!! i m feeling totally irritated…dnt need ds natural shower at all!! More importantly…see d irony…Living in ds modern era,still electricity issues occurs in such bad weather conditions ,it plays hike n seek all d tym plus one has to deal with those problems..even some important work has to be kept on hold n d only option left is to wait …